when did that happen?

ever wake up one day and feel like you're in the wrong body.  like this past week ive noticed the bulges on the sides of my back and the slight softness in my belly.  a serious what the hell moment.  because that is the last place my fat goes. i worked out twice today, mainly because i had lunch with my grandma and we had mexican, but still what the hell, where did that come from!
its so freaking easy to gain weight and so effing hard to lose it.
im going to hawaii in 3 weeks, so the double workout thing might just continue....

effffff

growing up

when you are little you are taught to trust grown ups.  that they know more than you, that what they do is right, and that you should be like them.  parents, teachers, family, friends.  but there comes a time when you realize that they are not perfect.  that they make mistakes.  that they can be very, very wrong.

the only lesson i can really take away when i realize someone i once believed in so much is completely different in reality than what i thought in my head, is that as i grow up...i must stay humble.  i must admit to my mistakes, admit to being selfish and stubborn when i am.  i am headstrong i know, but i feel that my intentions are always for the best.  i want to be the best version of myself and i feel that can only happen once i acknowledge my mistakes.

there was a bitter time in my life. and after everything that has happened, i really try to be optimistic.  i hate being around negative people.

i don't know where i'm going with this. i guess i've just realized truly how many people there are in this world...

i guess if someone were to describe me, i would hope they say that i was:
kind
ambitious
creative
sensitive
loyal
smart
honest
and a hopeless romantic ;)

"Strip Me"

My new favorite song of the moment is Natasha Bedingfield's "Strip Me".  It's become an anthem I scream/sing in the car on the way to work.  I think it's also the song they used in the preview of the new Rachel McAdams movie coming out...I'm having a brainfart on what the title is.  Anyways, lots of new music to look forward to.  The new Sugarland album is awesome. Jennifer Nettles is one of my favorite voices of all time.  Taylor Swift, Reba, and Rascal Flatts all have new albums coming out as well that I am very excited about.  
Happy Friday, I leave you with the chorus of "Strip Me" :)


"Take what you want 
Steal my pride 
Build me up 
Or cut me down to size 
Shut me out 
But I'll just scream 
Im only one voice in a million 
but you aint taking that from me 
Oh oh no you aint taking that from me."

<3 T

Overwhelmed

sometimes when i have a long list of things to do...i feel overwhelmed so i choose not to do any of it. thats a very bad habit, so now im going to write all these things down and try to get them done asap. after i workout and shower first of course. i cant believe its friday, this week has flown by!

the now

Currently...


reading: The Eragon series
listening to: Tyrone Wells, Katy Perry, & Regina Spektor
obsessing over: decorating my apartment
love eating: yogurtland
watching: Too fat for 15 & my movie channels... its very interesting
wearing: workout clothes..work and workout! & my new nordstroms purchases

<3 T

New Music..

I just got a new car courtesy of my amazing, wonderful parents! I love that new car smell and the fact that I can play my ipod through it so in light of that I've been downloading some new music.  Through my search I have decided that I currently am loving on Bruno Mars, his songs just make me smile and give me hope that maybe one day I will find my happy ending.  I forget where I heard it, but I was reminded that Happily Ever After doesn't happen till the last page...it's the journey that matters.  I'm trying to let it all fall in to place and believe in love, so all you romantics out there just like me..here is to finding our happy ending!


Love T :)

eat, pray, love.

saw the movie eat, pray, love last night and i absolutely loved it! it was a little long, but my favorite part was the italy part. the entire movie just made me want to save money into my travel fund...there are so many places i want to go! i currently have 1 stamp on my passport (to cancun, mexico) and i will be gaining another one next month when i go to vancouver, canada for a wedding!  i went to the wedding of two of my closest friends form college this weekend and it was absolutely beautiful and i had an amazing time, life is good when your happy. and right now i'm so happy with letting life lead me down this path..im to tired to be angry or bitter at the world, i just want to live with peace in my heart. eat, pray, love was an awesome movie, but now i want to read the book!
thats all for tonight!
BELIEF - Be Everything Life Intended Expect Fulfillment #TDL

11 interesting things about me

well at least i think they are interesting...
1.  My favorite color is pink.  I am slowly redecorating my room after having it the same for 4 years and now that I've moved its time for change.  White and pink are the main colors
2. I LOVE music, my hard drive is basically alll music... currently listening to Tyrone Wells while I type.
3. I love animals and really want a cat, but I think I'll wait a few more years because all my cats at my parents are outdoor and indoor cats and I feel bad for them living in an apartment.
4. I feel like I have gone through some good times and bad, but the bad are what have made me who i am today and now that I look back I am thankful for the journey and currently happy with life.
5. i used to hate beer, but now i crave a dos equis, miller chill, or blue moon sometimes.  a snakebite (Guinness & pear cider) is my favorite thanks to my best friend.
6. i absolutely love california. im am a cali girl all the way, even though i spent 5 years for college in Boise, ID. I've always wanted to live in the South...Nashville or North Carolina or the Georgia coast...just to see what its like.
7. I love to read.  Currently reading the Eragon series..finishing book number 2.
8. I can not wait till I can afford to travel, I desperately want to visit England, Italy, and Australia.  Going to Canada next month and super excited!
9. I used to hate my parents for making me keep my room clean in high school, but now I am glad and am kind of a neat freak..I like things to be organized and put away.... I think a clean room is a calm room.
10. I like to wake up every morning and give myself time to drink my coffee, browse the internet, and just zone out before starting my day therefor so I am not late I have to give myself about an hour before actually getting ready or I'll be late and I hate when I'm late.
11. I am a hopeless romantic. I believe in the power of love.  I think I should have been born in a different time, I don't know which, but sometimes I think the world is so complex it gives me anxiety.  I just want to fall in love and have the happily ever after every girl dreams of and at the same time accomplish all my hopes, dreams, and goals!


anyways, this blog is a collection of random thoughts, quotes, memories, and overall just a place to express things through my eyes.
T